tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15226547722202524312024-03-05T17:13:16.545+08:00When Emotions Are Talkingsomebody may think something is nothing but somebody else may think it is everythingAziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.comBlogger201125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-41510162258533249162017-08-01T19:37:00.002+08:002017-08-01T19:37:51.885+08:00Aku Tertanya LagiTuhan, hati kecil ini berbicara kembali<br />
Membuatkan aku tertanya lagi<br />
Beratnya dugaanMu ini sungguh aku tak mengerti<br />
Jerih perih payahnya<br />
Seksa jiwa ini<br />
Tuhan, sampaikanlah bantuanMu<br />
Buat hamba insan kerdil ini<br />
Sungguh sakit tak tertanggung<br />
Menahan derita ini<br />
Yang tak mungkin orang biasa mengerti<br />
Aku tertanya lagi<br />
Kenapa aku diuji begini<br />
Jiwa ini sakit, semakin luka<br />
Darah jiwa yang mengalir<br />
Pedihnya tak terungkap dengan kata-kata<br />
Tuhan, sungguh aku mengharapkan bantuanMu<br />
Kerana diri ini kadang-kadang dirundung pilu<br />
Kenapa malang sentiasa datang bertimpa<br />
Sudah ku cuba<br />
Sudah ku usaha<br />
Mencari kesilapan diri ini<br />
Sungguh aku tak bisa berdiri lagi<br />
Jika harus terus terseksa begini<br />
Tuhan, bebaskanlah aku<br />
Dari cengkaman duniawi<br />
Yang tampaknya semakin membelenggu diri Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-5755037453849957482017-07-17T10:24:00.002+08:002017-07-17T10:24:40.088+08:00Kehilangan ArahSekali lagi kehilangan tempat mengadu. Apa yang ditakuti kini benar-benar terjadi. Walaupun memang sudah dijangka, tetapi tetap memberi kesan kepada hati dan semangat ini. Tatkala kesusahan yang menimpa di tahap paling dahsyat, barulah kita kenal siapa kawan siapa lawan. Biasa. Orang yang kita bantu itu takkan dapat bantu kita balik. Kadang2 moral support sudah cukup tapi kalau itu pun tak boleh nak bagi, tak tahu lagi nak kata apa. Aku benar2 pasrah. Semua masalah berpunca dari dia. Dan kini dia nak menjauhkan diri. Semuanya hanya untuk membantu dia tetapi kini bila aku dah susah, dia mahu menghilangkan diri atas alasan terasa tidak berguna kerana dia tak mampu bantu aku. Jika dulu, aku akan berharap untuk dia <em>stay</em>. Tetapi kini tidak lagi. Bukan sekali, tetapi sudah banyak kali. Mungkin sudah tiba masa dan waktu, aku hadap sahaja semua ini sendiri. Aku masih memerlukan bantuan tetapi bukan dari dia lagi. Hati ini sangat parah sampai tak tau dah nak rasa apa. Hilang arah. Bagaikan zombie.Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-87847880686524443022017-07-11T02:56:00.002+08:002017-07-11T02:56:39.253+08:00Dihimpit WaktuSendiri aku di sini<br />
Menahan tangis dan sendu<br />
Tatkala yang lain lena dibuai mimpi<br />
Aku terpegun di sini menyalahkan takdir<br />
Kenapa aku ditimpa ujian sebegini?<br />
Kenapa aku yang terpilih untuk duduk dalam situasi ini?<br />
Di mana salahku?<br />
Apa salahku?<br />
Aku cuba, sudah aku cuba untuk buat yang terbaik<br />
Aku berusaha, aku jatuh, aku bangkit<br />
Namun tampaknya semua sia-sia<br />
Hati ini sudah bengkak menahan rasa<br />
Sudah lama aku cuba cekalkan hati<br />
Sudah lama aku menahan tangis ini<br />
Tetapi hening ini, ia terobek kembali<br />
Mengenang kisah lalu yang tak mungkin dapat diulang kembali<br />
Meratapi dalam tangis, malang yang bertimpa<br />
Lepas satu, satu<br />
Terkadang rasa ingin mati<br />
Mujur masih punya iman di hati<br />
Ingin sahaja aku melarikan diri<br />
Dari semua yang ada<br />
Tinggalkan dunia yang fana ini<br />
Sudah aku cuba untuk redha<br />
Namun aku hanya manusia biasa<br />
Aku sudah tidak berdaya<br />
Kudratku semakin hilang<br />
Ditelan masalah yang bertimpa<br />
Waktu semakin membelengguku<br />
Sinar yang ku harapkan<br />
Bagai menyepikan diri<br />
Apakah hikmah di sebalik semua ini?<br />
Aku bertanya lagi seorang diri<br />
Fikiran semakin kusut<br />
Selera semakin susut<br />
Mencari makna yang tersirat<br />
Apakah masih ada hikmah di sebalik semua ini?<br />
Aku pun sudah tidak pasti<br />
Peganganku semakin goyah<br />
Langkah ku semakin lesu<br />
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-Aziemah Gekozen, July 2017-Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-64215297779272951922017-06-17T12:04:00.001+08:002017-06-17T12:05:11.048+08:00Decision in the MakingI've been through some series of changes lately. These changes are making me to rethink and reconsider what I really want in my life. What I really desire.<br />
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Before, I have always wished to be an outstanding person. Not living a normal life and achieve something that not a normal people can. However, now, everything has changed. All I want now is just a normal life. I just want to live like a normal person. Happily without any abnormal concerns.<br />
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Everything that happens really makes me not only stressed but so depressed to the point that my body reacts without my brain knowing it.<br />
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I am slowly setting my heart on something. All I want is to get away from everything and be the normal self that I used to be. The old me, the introvert me. All these years have been really tiring. I have experienced everything I need to and now I have learned my lessons.<br />
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As I am setting my heart into this, and whether or not I am receiving any support, I think I'll just carry on. A year with someone which I thought can be my other half has not been promising enough. So much obstacles coming along the way until I do not know what else I am hoping for.<br />
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So, there it is. I have set my heart on it. Now let the time decide how it will turn out in the future. I still hope for the best and only the best. Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-50169114982945199042017-02-23T00:30:00.000+08:002017-02-23T00:30:05.967+08:00Be Careful of What You Wish ForPasti ramai yang pernah dengar <i>phrase </i>ini: <b>Be careful of what you wish for, coz you just might get it all.</b><br />
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Dulu, bila saya dengar ayat ini dalam sebuah lagu, saya rasa agak hairan. Kenapa nak kena berhati-hati dengan apa yang kita mahukan? Dan kalau kita dapat apa yang kita mahukan, bukan ke itu memang BAGUS? Siapa yang akan rasa sedih kalau dapat apa yang dia mahukan, bukan?<br />
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Semakin lama masa berlalu, saya rasa saya semakin faham dengan maksud yang tersirat di sebalik nasihat itu. Paling senang nak kaitkan contoh adalah tentang hal mencari jodoh.<br />
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Tahun ini usia saya sudah menginjak ke angka 28 tahun. Sudah tentu ramai kawan saya yang sudah berkahwin dan ada sudah 2,3 orang anak sedangkan saya masih bujang. Saya teringat dulu masa tahun 2010, ada orang pernah nasihatkan saya, mungkin saya patut senaraikan apa yang saya cari sebagai calon suami saya.<br />
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Tidak disangkal, ramai yang mengatakan saya memilih. Biasanya saya akan jawab, macam mana saya nak memilih kalau senarai calonnya pun tak ada? Okey, berbalik kepada senarai kriteria yang saya cari. Saya tak buat senarai seperti yang dinasihatkan sebab sebenarnya dalam kepala, dari dulu lagi saya sudah ada kriteria tertentu yang saya cari.<br />
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Pertama sekali, apabila berkenalan dengan seseorang, jujur, soalan pertama yang saya tanya adalah <b>merokok atau tidak</b>. Dan sudah tentu, memang jarang untuk jumpa lelaki yang tidak merokok walhal kriteria nombor satu dalam senarai saya adalah <b>tidak merokok</b>.<br />
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Kedua, saya akan tengok bagaimana <b>background family</b> dia. Kebanyakan orang yang saya kenal, mereka ada family yang boleh dikatakan <i>complete. </i>Jarang yang saya jumpa ada <i>single parent. </i>Kalau ada pun sebab ayah dia sudah meninggal. Dan maaf saya katakan, saya merasakan mereka yang ada <i>complete family </i>ini takkan boleh memahami <i>family </i>saya yang agak <i>complicated. </i>Saya bukan cari orang dari <i>broken family </i>tetapi entahlah, saya rasa kalau orang yang <i>family </i>dia <i>perfect </i>dan jika ada masalah pun, hanya masalah <i>family </i>yang biasa, saya rasa orang itu tidak sesuai dengan saya.<br />
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Seterusnya, saya tahu kriteria ini agak pelik tetapi saya mencari orang yang buat <b>bisnes. </b>Saya kurang berminat dengan lelaki yang kerja <i>office hour </i>sebab saya berfikir, nanti bila sudah kahwin, banyak benda yang akan sangkut. Contohnya kalau saya nak bersalin ke, suami terpaksa <i>apply </i>cuti atau kalau anak sakit tapi suami tak dapat cuti, susah saya nak uruskan sorang2. Sekurang-kurangnya, kalau dia memiliki bisnes sendiri, dia boleh bergerak ke mana sahaja sesuka hati.<br />
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Dan mungkin <i>last but not least, </i>saya tengok kalau orang itu pernah mengalami <b>masalah </b>yang berat. Kerana bagi saya, masalah akan mematangkan seseorang. Dan untuk keadaan saya sekarang, saya memerlukan orang yang sangat matang dalam hal kehidupan. Saya memerlukan orang untuk membimbing saya kerana masalah yang saya ada bukan dialami oleh orang yang hidup dia normal. Masalah apa? Saya pun tak tau macam mana nak cerita tapi apa yang pasti, di kalangan kawan-kawan dan orang yang saya baru jumpa, mereka tak ada masalah yang saya hadapi. Jadi, saya memerlukan orang yang boleh berhadapan dengan <i>challenges.</i><br />
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Dan betullah apa orang kata, <i>be careful of what you wish for, coz you might just get it all. </i>Semuanya benar belaka. Saya menemui seseorang dengan <b>semua </b>kriteria yang saya sebutkan tadi. Saya ulang, semua. Maknanya, orang itu merokok, <i>complicated background</i>, bisnes, pernah berdepan dengan masalah berat.<br />
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Ada orang pernah cakap, jangan sebut apa yang kita tak nak sebab itu yang kita akan dapat. Jadi, sebab itu saya jumpa orang yang merokok hahaha. Dan setiap kriteria yang saya sebutkan, ada dugaannya yang tersendiri. Tak perlu saya huraikan satu per satu sebab akan menceritakan perihal dia pula.<br />
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Walaupun begitu, kami masih di peringkat perkenalan. Belum ada apa yang pasti. Cuma saya terpanggil untuk menulis post ini kerana saya baru terfikir kaitannya dengan apa yang saya <i>wish for </i>bertahun-tahun dulu kini mula menampakkan <i>result.</i><br />
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Kadang-kadang, tipulah kalau saya tak pernah persoalkan, kenapa Tuhan uji saya sebegini rupa? Kenapa Tuhan tangguhkan jodoh saya? Kenapa saya masih belum bertemu <i>Mr. Right? </i>Dan di saat saya sangkakan saya sudah bertemu orangnya, banyaknya dugaan di tengah jalan yang membuatkan saya <i>give up </i>sahaja dalam bab <i>relationship. </i>Mahu sahaja saya cuma fokus pada kerjaya tetapi saya juga manusia, kadang-kadang saya juga mahukan teman hidup. Untuk buat perkara <i>simple </i>seperti makan dan tengok TV pun kadang-kadang terasa macam <i>loser </i>sangat sebab semuanya buat sendirian. Penyudahnya, tidur membuatkan saya tidak berfikir tentang semua itu.<br />
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Apa pun, saya berharap tulisan saya kali ini dapat membuka mata seseorang untuk perbetulkan balik <i>wishlist. </i>Cuba renung balik. Jangan buat silap macam saya. Saya percaya, Tuhan itu maha adil. Dia dengar apa yang kita minta. Dia akan bagi semua yang kita minta tapi sama ada Dia bagi sekarang atau lambat saja. Sebab itu orang kata, <b>be careful of what you wish for, coz you just might get it all.</b><br />
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<b> </b>Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-88973458253828685512016-09-02T16:47:00.000+08:002016-09-02T16:47:42.211+08:00Personal Loan? Think Again...Kalau zaman dulu, nak apply loan dengan bank mungkin susah sangat tapi zaman sekarang, bank siap call kita lagi nak offer untuk ambil personal loan! Kalau bukan dia call pun, kita pegi mana2 pun memang senang nak dapat. Just walk in, bagi IC, dia tolong print penyata KWSP, bagitahu berapa yg kita layak apply, bam! Approve masa tu jugak! And kita check account beberapa minit lepas tu, duit dah ada! Macam tak percaya!<br />
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Aduhai. Punya senang nak buat LOAN rupanya tapi berapa ramai yg sedar sebenarnya loan macam ni tak perlu pun. Seksa nak membayarnya. Ada org pernah cakap, SENANG approve tapi SENANG nak jadi bankrupt hanya semata-mata sebab tak dapat bayar di kemudian hari.<br />
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Cuba fikir, loan yg diapply cuma RM5,000. Duit cash yg dapat tak sampai 5k sebab ada sikit tolak utk cover insurans sbb kalau meninggal, sape nak bayar? Dan campur tolak interest gedebak gedebuk, end up ko kena bayar dekat RM9,000.<br />
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Cuba fikir balik. Buat kira2 balik. Berbaloi ke tak berbaloi?<br />
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Mungkin, ada org yg memang terdesak nak pakai duit. Macam saya beberapa tahun dulu, terpaksa buat jugak loan sbb memang nak pakai duit tapi sampai skrg saya menyesal sbb tiap2 bulan kena bayar loan. Saya duk fikir, kalau saya simpan duit sendiri lagi bagus.<br />
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Bodohnya saya masa tu. Belum celik kewangan dan mungkin keadaan yg memaksa.<br />
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Saya berharap saya takkan ulangi kesilapan yg sama dan saya harap org lain juga sama. Jangan hanya kerana nak bermewah, pergi buat personal loan. Nak kahwin? Kalau boleh jangan berhutang.<br />
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Sebenarnya walaupun saya dah celik kewangan dan dah tahu risikonya, saya terjebak lagi dgn personal loan ni tapi atas sebab2 yg tak dapat saya elakkan. Dan sekali lagi saya menyesal tak sudah. Tolong, jangan jadi macam saya. Hidup hanya utk bayar hutang. Hidup berhutang ni tak bahagia. Lambat sikit bayar, bank call hari2. Tak cukup dengan tu, sms lagi suruh bayar dan ugut akan ambil tindakan. Tak ubah macam along.<br />
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Saya dah rasa. Saya dah buat silap. Sekarang saya cuma nak settle semua hutang saya cepat2 dan bersihkan nama saya dari rekod bank. Dan saya berharap sangat, anda semua kat luar sana, fikir masak2. Ya, ramai juga yg buat loan sbb nak tolong org. Nasihat saya, JANGAN! Jangan sebab nak tolong orang, akhirnya kita yg merana. Sebab tak mustahil, org yg ditolong tu gigit balik tangan yg menolong dgn seikhlas hati ni.<br />
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Dah banyak yg saya lalui. Walaupun saya ada ilmu, saya sedar apa yg sedang berlaku, tetapi saya masih buat silap. Yang terbaru, golongan MLM ni sangat menggalakkan org utk buat loan. Itu lagi satu hal. Mungkin ada yg betul, tetapi banyak jugak yg salah. Nak berniaga pilih jalan yg betul. Jangan masuk skim cepat kaya.<br />
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Menyesalnya saya Tuhan saja yg tahu. Hari2 menangis pun dah tak guna. Hadap saja masalah dan berdoa supaya Tuhan tunjukkan apa hikmah di sebalik semua kejadian ni.<br />
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Personal loan? Think again...<br />
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Jangan jadi macam pepatah kata, korek lubang gali lubang. Hutang sini utk bayar hutang sana.<br />
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Wallahu'alam.Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-67449483479271262722016-08-09T16:17:00.000+08:002016-08-09T16:24:13.097+08:00Jatuh Bangun TerdudukMungkin kita biasa dengar cerita-cerita tentang orang yg pernah jatuh, yg pernah gagal dalam hidup atau perniagaan atau percintaan dan sebagainya. Mudahnya orang menceritakan, "Dulu si polan tu sangat berjaya, sekarang dia dah down. Dia dah jatuh. Habis semuanya." Dan mudah juga kita yang hanya mendengar tetapi sebenarnya kita tak dapat membayangkan keperitan yg dialami oleh orang tersebut.<br />
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Sekarang, Tuhan memilih saya utk berada dalam situasi itu. Saya tidak menganggap diri saya gagal kerana apa yg terjadi bukanlah disebabkan saya tetapi disebabkan keadaan yg tidak dapat saya kawal. Tetapi apa yg pasti, saya merasa sangat2 down. Tipulah jika saya kata saya tidak terkesan dengan apa yg terjadi.<br />
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Dugaan demi dugaan datang menimpa. Bagaikan jatuh ditimpa tangga. Tetapi berkali-kali ditimpa tangga ni. Dan apabila saya mengalami kesukaran begini, dan saya juga pasti kita semua juga sama, saya memerlukan sokongan dari orang-orang yg dekat dengan saya.<br />
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Tetapi apa yg lebih teruk adalah orang yg saya harapkan sokongan sahaja, bukannya bantuan dari segi material atau kewangan, telah memutuskan untuk meninggalkan saya terkapai-kapai keseorangan dalam masalah yg tidak berkesudahan.<br />
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Puas saya berfikir, di mana salahnya. Saya buntu. Tetapi saya mendapat kesimpulan, masa susah ni lah baru kita tahu siapa kawan siapa lawan. Mudahnya untuk menguji manusia. Tatkala dia sedang susah, saya sentiasa memberi sokongan dan bantuan. Tetapi bila tiba giliran saya, ini yang dibalas.<br />
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Ya, saya bukan mengungkit. Saya tidak berkira dengan apa yg saya lakukan. Cukup sekadar berada di sisi saya untuk melalui semua kesusahan ini. Tidak banyak yg saya minta, hanya moral support. Tetapi tanpa ragu-ragu, mudahnya dia membuat keputusan.<br />
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Pada awalnya, saya memang sedih, kelu, terpempan. Saya bagaikan bermimpi. Betul-betul tidak percaya dengan apa yang terjadi. Semuanya bagaikan tidak wujud. Saya telah menerima tamparan yg sangat hebat dalam hidup saya. Terasa ingin lari jauh dari semuanya dan menyepikan diri dari dunia ini. Hati saya benar-benar kecewa. Saya sudah penat untuk melalui semua ini berseorangan.<br />
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Saya betul2 penat dan tidak sanggup lagi untuk berdepan dengan orang2 yang tidak jujur hatinya, yang tidak ikhlas berkawan dengan saya, yang berkawan dengan saya hanya untuk mengisi kelapangan, hanya untuk menghilangkan rasa bosan. Sedih. Terluka hati, tertusuk sangat dalam.<br />
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Karma itu wujud. Tuhan itu ada. Saya terus-menerus katakan ini kepada diri sendiri. I just need a break. Saya cuba yakinkan diri saya bahawa semua yang terjadi mungkin ada hikmah di sebaliknya. Saya katakan kepada diri, mujurlah Tuhan tunjuk kebenaran sekarang daripada nanti sudah terlambat.<br />
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Tetapi saya masih persoalkan, Why now? Oh God, why?<br />
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Di saat saya benar2 berada di bawah. Di saat saya sedang menghadapi kesukaran yg maha hebat. Dugaan yg paling berat dalam hidup saya. Kenapa ia perlu terjadi sekarang?<br />
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Astaghfirullahalazim. Sungguh tak sangka. Apa yg saya dengar, apa yg saya baca selama ini sekarang berlaku kepada diri saya sendiri. Apakah saya tidak mengambil pengajaran dari pengalaman orang lain?<br />
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Mungkin ya, mungkin tidak. Patutlah ada ayat al-Quran yg mengatakan, ada mata buta, ada telinga pekak.<br />
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Ya Allah, apa yg aku dah buat dengan hidup aku?<br />
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Saya menangis. Bukan kerana sedih sebab orang itu sudah tidak ada. Tetapi sedih dengan apa yg sudah berlaku dalam hidup, perkara yg tidak dapat ditebus balik, masa yg habis yg tidak dapat diputar kembali.<br />
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Saya sakit hati, marah kerana saya tidak nampak sifat sebenar orang-orang di sekeliling saya. Kenapa saya tak nampak semua ni? Naif sangat ke saya? Kenapa saya terlampau bersangka baik kepada orang lain? Sedangkan orang itu hanya mengambil kesempatan ke atas saya.<br />
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Kerana saya percaya, setiap orang ada kebaikan yg tersembunyi, ada nilai yg dia sendiri tidak nampak. Sebab itu saya bertahan dengannya di saat dia mengalami kesusahan. Namun, semua itu hanyalah sia-sia.<br />
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Kali ini, saya banyak belajar. Orang yg nampak ikhlas pun boleh jatuhkan saya. Ramainya orang bersifat hipokrit dalam dunia ni. Apa tujuan nak menjatuhkan saya, saya pun tak tahu. Saya belum pun berdiri tinggi tetapi kenapa dah ada orang nak jatuhkan saya?<br />
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Dan saya rasa mereka berjaya. Sekarang saya memang jatuh. I am at the lowest point of my life. Apa yang lebih teruk daripada dijatuhkan oleh orang kepercayaan sendiri? Orang yang selama ini saya berkongsi kisah suka duka. Orang yg selama ini banyak juga membantu dalam hal2 tertentu. Tetapi akhirnya orang yang sama itulah yg menjatuhkan saya, yang meninggalkan saya.<br />
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Saya sudah hilang kepercayaan. Jiwa saya benar2 kosong. Mujur saya masih ada Tuhan. Saya masih ada agama. Dan saya tahu, Tuhan menguji hambaNya mengikut kemampuan hambaNya. Saya memang rasa tak mampu nak lalui semua ni lagi. Allah, pinjamkan kekuatanMu kepada hambaMu yang lemah ini.<br />
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Kalau orang itu terbaca tulisan saya ini, saya tak tahu apa yang anda rasa. Apa kepuasan yg anda dapat bila buat begini pada saya. Saya memang sedih dengan apa yg terjadi. Kesannya memang teruk. Tetapi kalau macam ni sikap anda terhadap saya di saat saya mengalami kesusahan, tak apa. Saya tak rugi sebab saya tak perlu hidup dengan org yg hipokrit. Yg menipu diri sendiri dan menipu saya dan org lain selama ini. Banyak yg saya nak luahkan, tetapi semuanya saya hold sebab tiada guna lagi bercakap dengan org yg melayan saya macam sampah.<br />
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Cukup saya minta jangan buat macam tu lagi pada org lain. Karma itu wujud. Mungkin dia dah rasa apa yg saya rasa sebelum ni. Saya tak perlu doa supaya Tuhan buat dia rasa apa yg saya rasa. Saya hanya nak dia sedar.<br />
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Saya masih di bawah. Saya masih terduduk. Sedang termenung. Merenung langit. Memerhati dengan pandangan kosong. Orang lain semakin menggapai impian tetapi impian saya musnah begitu sahaja. Semuanya hancur lebur. Nothing left for me anymore. Saya terpaksa bina semuanya semula. Terpaksa bina dari bawah balik. Kejatuhan saya memberi kesan kepada keluarga saya kerana sayalah tempat keluarga bergantung. I feel so bad for them.<br />
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Kalau saya jatuh seorang, tidak apa. Tetapi kesannya hingga ke orang yg saya sayangi. Allah, pertemukanlah aku dengan orang yg benar2 ikhlas hatinya. Aku sudah tak sanggup untuk rasa kecewa lagi. Amin...<br />
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Saya dah tak tahu apa yg saya nak dalam hidup ni. I am slowly picking myself up. Picking my heart that shattered into pieces and trying to mend everything. Saya dah agak benda ni akan berlaku tetapi saya tak sangka ia akan jadi seteruk ini. I have screwed up my life, totally screwed up.<br />
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Tetapi saya katakan pada diri, orang lain kena lagi teruk. Semoga saya dapat melihat hikmah di sebalik semua yg berlaku ini. Saya cuba melupakan semuanya dan teruskan hidup. Saya perlu bangkit semula. Bukan untuk diri saya sahaja, tetapi untuk keluarga saya juga. Dan diri saya sendiri yg perlu menyokong saya. Jika tiada sokongan orang lain pun tidak apa. I can survive alone. Thank you for everything. I will forgive but I will never forget.<br />
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<i>Were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it </i></div>
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<br />Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-69453911953008608832016-07-19T02:18:00.000+08:002016-07-19T02:18:06.015+08:00Ghostbusters (2016): Movie ReviewIt has been such a long time since I wrote a movie review. Such a waste because I watched countless movies and I just didn't have time to write about it. You know, I like to write about movies that I watch. In case it is a bad movie, you don't have to waste your time or money to watch it.<br />
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Now, I would like to write about the latest movie that I just watched. Ghostbusters (2016)<br />
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For me, this movie was very fun to watch. It has a lot of jokes and the actors are funny too. For a while I forgot about my problem and loosen up a bit. If you're stressed after a day at work, you really need to watch this. Suitable for family watch.<br />
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I'm not a cinematographic person but I can say the visual effects are good.<br />
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My rating: 8.5/10<br />
<br />Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-33135956950865699652016-07-19T02:00:00.001+08:002016-07-19T02:00:23.171+08:00The Struggle is RealJust as I thought I am starting a new life, again, I'm tested with something that I feel is the heaviest of all the things that I've experienced so far.<br />
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Yes dear readers. If you know me through my previous blog posts, I love making changes to my life and often, the change that I'm making is drastic, at least for people around me. As usual, they will see my action has not been given enough thoughts.<br />
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Well, of course, who wants to ruin his or her life with stupid decisions, right?<br />
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What I'm trying to say, I am making this big change after considering a lot of things and would you want to know what trouble I have created this time?<br />
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I QUIT MY JOB!<br />
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Yes. With the economic downturn, I sent my resignation letter despite the big project that I was handling, the project that would boost up my name as a textbook editor in Malaysia. When I asked for my friend's view, what does she think, should I stay and be constantly busy until September or should I just send that letter that I've already written without a date on it.<br />
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My friend's answer made me ponder hard. She said:<br />
Who cares whose name is printed on the textbook? Only certain people will pay attention to it. Others will just ignore and use the book because it is compulsory to use that book in school.<br />
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I thought and thought. Actually I really loved the job. I was really proud with my skills and ability of being an editor. However, day by day, I also felt that my English was getting worse. I don't know if you spot any grammatical mistakes throughout this post. Maybe you'll find one or two or maybe not, I don't know.<br />
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I postponed my intention to quit because I felt responsible to help the team. There were too much on the plate and I could be a help. However, I had come to a point that I felt I couldn't do it anymore. Plus I had part time jobs which require my full attention. There, there, finally with a heavy heart, I opened the letter, wrote a date, and sent it to my manager.<br />
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Of course everyone was shocked. As I said earlier, my action was drastic to everyone but no one knew that I had been considering this for almost a year and it was time.<br />
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Not that my income from the part time jobs were higher than my editor's salary but that salary was not really high either. So my dear readers, again, I have cut down my income to half. While I was doing masters, I also quit my freelance job and my income was half too. But at that time, my commitment was not very high compared to now.<br />
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Now I have a car. With that comes petrol expenses and also the toll. Also I have 3 insurance policies, my education loan, personal loan and blah blah blah.<br />
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Well, what I can say, Man! The struggle is real!<br />
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Oh no, I'm not going to stop my insurance. The harder your life, the more policies you should have, I live by that principal. Sometimes mom would try to persuade me to find another job. Try for government agencies, they offer pension. Well, I just kept quiet.<br />
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Honestly, I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel blank. I feel lost. I have messed up my life. BUT what I know, I couldn't stay at the company any longer for certain reasons. AND I know I don't want to work 8-5 anymore. I just want to do business and not tied down to any stupid rules anymore.<br />
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So here I am. Sitting with loads of sigh and relief. I work freely. I decide what time I want to do my work and when I want to sleep or eat. It all depends on me, I am the boss. And that's the issue, discipline. I need to be stricter to myself but I am happy to do that. I am no longer stressed. Though life is harder now, I am happier. No more traffic jams in the mornings and evenings. No more nausea and not enough sleep.<br />
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Alhamdulillah. So far so good.<br />
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But I know, there are tests await me. Though I'm just sitting at home, not bothering anything and anyone, people are still searching for trouble with me. They're making stories which are untrue and telling the stories to people who don't even know me. They accuse me being lazy because they see my car at the porch while they do not know that I am working hard in front of my laptop.<br />
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This really broke my heart. The person that I thought I could trust with all my heart is actually a backstabber. The very same person that I thought understands how my life is, how I feel, what I do, is actually the one who is making the stories about me behind my back. Another one person that I really respected is actually the one that betrays me. Honestly I thought that person will guide me through this but now, it's all ruined. I don't know who I should trust anymore.<br />
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There has been so many times I got betrayed with people who were close to me. Do you want to know what I feel? Let me create an analogy for you because I don't want to tell the real story of mine.<br />
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Try imagine, you have a best friend. That person is really nice to you all this while. You'll be there for him/her and he/she will always be there for you. You are a hardworking person. You work till late. You don't have enough sleep because you would want to send your work before the deadline. When you've finished your work and successfully hit the deadline, you decide to rest and sleep. You do this every time you have a project. Your best friend knows about this. Your friend knows but he/she does not see you work because he/she sleeps and wakes up early. You continue doing this on and on and you're just happy with what you achieve. Then one day, you meet another friend. That friend suddenly tells you, I've heard rumours about you. What is it? I've heard that you like to sleep during the day and does not come out of the house. You only stay at home being lazy. Lazy? Yes, they say you're lazy and sleepyhead.<br />
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There, there. I'm not a good story teller but that's only a part of it. If I were to write everything, this post will be very long. So despite the financial struggle that I am having right now, I'm also having backstabbers and jealous people talking about my personal life.<br />
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I don't know what they want from me. I don't go around pissing off anybody. I just sit here and do my work. What have I done wrong? Seriously? My conclusion is: There will always be people who will disturb your life though you have done nothing.<br />
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Man, the struggle is real. If only I can kick their butts! Let's hope they have nightmares for the rest of their life.<br />
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If you're in the same shoes, yeah we cried, a lot. We cried until no more tears left. We almost kill ourselves. We hate everything because we have always been nice but why do this happen to us? Believe me friends, I believe this is only a test for us before we're given something a lot nicer and better.<br />
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Let's wipe our tears and get up. Dress up and show up. Cheers!<br />
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<br />Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-60800788423135576922016-07-14T16:23:00.002+08:002018-03-25T23:19:16.181+08:00Masalah Jerawat di Muka?: Sincere Product Review<div style="text-align: center;">
AMARAN! Saya bukan jual produk kecantikan. Saje nak share pengalaman saya sendiri.</div>
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Sama macam ramai orang lain, saya salah seorang yang suka tukar2 produk kecantikan atau pembersih muka sebab nak cantik punya pasal kan hehehehe</div>
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Kadang-kadang tu baru pakai sehari dua dah expect nak ada perubahan. Memang saya jenis yang tak sabar. Kawan2 suka bebel sebab diorang cakap, pakai la sampai 2,3 bulan dulu, jangan baru pakai sebulan dah nak tukar produk. ehermn saya cuma jawab ya, ya tapi dalam diam saya tukar jugak.</div>
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Sebenarnya banyak je produk yang elok kat pasaran. Yang penting kena konsisten guna dan ada jugak produk yang ada pantang larangnya. Contoh tak boleh campur dengan produk lain, tak boleh pakai bedak. Ha, yang ni mula2 konon setuju dengan pantang larang tapi last2 saya langgar jugak. Pegi pakai bedak, pegi campur produk lain, memang habis muka. Kalau ikut kata yang jual tu, kalau tak langgar pantang, memang muka boleh jadi cantik. </div>
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Erm rasanya saya tak dapat nak ikut pantang tu, rasa terbazir pulak beli mahal2 RM180 medium set tapi tak nak pakai dah. Baru pakai sikit, baru 2 minggu. <strike>Sape rasa nak cuba? PM saya cepat 0193663348, saya rasa nak jual balik untuk harga RM50 sekali dengan postage. Alasan sebab saya tak boleh nak ikut pantang. Rugi takde orang guna. Ni produknya, Cantiqa. Produk dia memang bagus.</strike> Kawan saya pun muka dia tak perlu pakai bedak, memang cantik.</div>
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Sebelum saya pakai Cantiqa ni, saya pakai produk Tabita. Kan feymes jugak produk ni.</div>
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Tabita ni memang best! Seminggu pakai muka dah glowing. Housemate saya pakai sampai sekarang dah tak tukar2. Masa sahur itu hari kan baru bangun tido, saya siap tanya, tido tak tanggal make up ke? Dia cakap mana ada make up. Ha nampak tak? Muka dia memang dah cantik sekarang. Cuma ada orang kata produk dia kuat sikit tapi saya rasa okey saja kalau orang yang memang ada masalah jerawat yang teruk tu nak cuba. Sebab housemate saya dulu jerawat dia besar2, sekarang dah kurang, dah tak nampak. Harga dia masa saya beli dulu RM130. Mahal sikit tapi daripada u ols duk tukar2 produk, sama juga habis duit kan.</div>
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Kalau elok kenapa saya tukar jugak produk ni? Muka saya pun jadi elok. Dah takde jerawat. Dulu selalu jugak naik jerawat. Saya tukar sebab tu memang habit saya ish ish. Saje nak cari produk yang lebih bagus and sebab kawan saya tu recommend cuba produk yg kat atas tadi.</div>
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Dulu saya jugak pernah pakai Tia Amelia. Ni lagi satu produk yang okey dan tak mahal sangat. Mula2 saya pakai, perubahan memang sangat ketara. Muka makin cerah and glowing. Cuma kadang2 berminyak sikit. Tapi kena ingat, effect pada orang lain mungkin berbeza. So kalau nak cuba pun okey jugak.</div>
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Lastly, nak dijadikan cerita, masa tu 2 hari lagi nak raya. Muka saya dah teruk sangat. Menggelupas sebab beberapa hari sebelum tu saya pakai masker. Pastu siang hari saya pakai foundation and bedak. Memang suka langgar pantang ish ish</div>
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Risau sangat2 sebab dah nak raya. Macam mana ni? Last2 adik saya recommend saya pakai Nour Ain. Mula2 macam ragu2 dan macam tak percaya. Tapi sebab nak cantik punya pasal dan saya tengok muka adik dengan mak sedara saya pun dah cantik, saya beli jugak. Mak sedara saya pun jerawat besar2, sekali jumpa dah licin. Tanya pakai apa? Pakai Nour Ain.</div>
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Alah, beli set yang ada sabun, toner, krim siang, krim malam macam yang kat atas ni. Hari tu saya dapat harga RM95 tapi rasanya kedai biasa mahal sikit. Kalau nak dapat harga murah, cuba cari kedai yang memang jual harga borong. </div>
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Sekali saya pakai malam tu, besoknya terus hilang kesan merah macam burn kat muka saya. Wah, family pun cakap memang dah hilang. Kuat kan produk ni? Tapi dia tak rasa pedih pun macam asid. Sebab tu saya happy sangat.</div>
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So saya saja tulis post ni sebab saya tau macam mana perasaan orang yang tengah mencari-cari produk muka yang sesuai. Perasaan tension bila semua orang tegur kenapa dengan muka tu? Banyaknya jerawat. Kenapa muka burn? Kenapa muka naik jeragat? So sebab tu saya tulis review ni. Saya bukan jual produk. Kalau nak beli pegi cari kat kedai atau online ye hahaha</div>
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<strike>Cuma produk Cantiqa tu, sape rasa nak cuba, boleh pm saya.</strike> Kalau ada yang nak share experience, boleh comment di bawah. Tenkiu sebab sudi baca sampai habis :)<br />
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Nota kaki: Kalau u ols jenis yang tak suka produk2 yang jenis macam ni, lebih rasa selamat beli kat Watsons/Guardian, saya recommend BioEssence yang Bio-Gold 24k tu. Bio-Gold water/toner tu mmg mahal sikit tapi tahan lama. Dah berbulan-bulan saya pakai tapi baru separuh botol. Okey untuk kulit biasa and boleh control jerawat. Produk Hada Labo yang tulisan Jepun ke Korea tu okey jugak. Amek yang kaler biru. Good luck!<br />
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Saya baru terdedah dengan pembacaan tentang krim2 kilo ni. Ah sudah! Dah berapa banyak merkuri yang saya tempek kat muka ni. Nasib baiklah saya ni jenis yang suka tukar2 produk, so saya tak setia dengan produk2 bermekuri tu walaupun hasilnya memang superb!</div>
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Sekarang saya berbalik kepada BioEssence tapi kali ni yang kaler biru sebab kulit saya kering. So far saya pakai okey. Lagipun BioEssence ni jenis picit sikit je dah cukup untuk cuci muka. Memang jimat & berbaloi2.</div>
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Mary Kay? Pernah juga pakai. Kena consult dengan Beauty Consultant (BC) sebab depa nak tau jenis kulit muka kita. Tak boleh suka hati nak terus pakai produk yang kaler pink ke, yg dragonfruit ke. Kata BC saya, MK ni focus untuk kita dapatkan kulit yang sihat. So dia memang ambil masa sikit. Satu tiub cleanser tu memang tahan sampai 4 bulan macam tu. So kalau harga RM75 macam tu pun masih rasa berbaloi kan? Saya ambil berperingkat. Mula2 beli cleanser. Lepas tu baru beli pelembap. Tapi biasalah, saya jenis tak setia. Dekat setahun juga saya pakai tapi saya tak berapa puas hati. So saya tukar balik. Kepada sesiapa yang nak cuba MK tu, boleh cari kat fb nama dia Nurul Afifah Hussin.</div>
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Apa pun, banyakkan baca review produk. Yang penting tak perlu obsess nak jadi putih. Bagi saya, cukup sekadar muka saya takde jerawat hehehe walaupun kadang2 masih terasa nak putih lagi tapi biar sahajalah. Terima sahaja keadaan kulit kita.</div>
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Bila terkena soalan tu, aku hanya tersengih macam kerang busuk. Biasanya aku jawab, "Tahun depan." Kali ni aku hanya tersengih.<br />
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Banyak kisah pahit manis yg terselindung di sebalik sengihan aku kali ni. Peritnya luka kat hati masih berbisa, belum kering pun nanahnya. Baru je terasa ada sinar harapan, rupanya semua tu palsu.<br />
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Banyak dugaan dan cabaran yg perlu dilalui. Dan kepercayaan juga adalah satu perkara yg sangat2 penting dalam perhubungan. Rupanya susah untuk saling mempercayai. Tak tau kenapa tapi itu satu cabaran yg agak besar.<br />
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Bila lagu Hey Ladies yg dinyanyikan oleh Rossa berkumandang di corong radio, aku hayati setiap bait2 liriknya. Nasihat yg terselit memang ada betulnya. Jangan terlalu percayakan lelaki sebab pujuk rayu dia semuanya bohong. Memang tak semua lelaki macam ni, tapi tak dinafikan, sangat ramai yg bersikap macam ni.<br />
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Kalau begini gayanya, mungkin mereka yg sama macam aku fobia untuk mempunyai apa2 perhubungan. Takut terluka lagi. Mereka mahukan kesetiaan tapi dalam masa yg sama mereka ada yg kedua, ataupun mungkin lebih. Apa kes kalau macam ni?<br />
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Memang layak ditinggalkan saja. Tapi apa yg menyedihkan, kenapa golongan ini masih wujud kat dunia ni? Tak takut tuhan kah mereka? Tak takut kalau benda yg sama akan terjadi pada mereka sendiri?<br />
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Buat gadis di luar sana, jangan cepat percaya lelaki. Sayang macam mana pun, berhati-hatilah. Walaupun sudah berjanji dan merancang untuk kahwin, masih kena berhati-hati. Jaga diri.<br />
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Alhamdulillah, tuhan masih sayangkan aku. Kebenaran ditunjukkan dalam banyak cara. Tiada lagi peluang kedua. Semoga dipertemukan orang yang lebih baik, amiin...<br />
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Aku bercerita kat sini bukan nak buka pekung di dada tapi aku nak semoga semua yg membaca post aku ni, ambik pengajaran. Belajar dari pengalaman org lain supaya tak terkena kat batang hidung sendiri.<br />
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Kalau org kata kita memilih, biarlah. Dulu org kata aku macam tu. So aku longgarkan sikit kriteria pemilihan aku. Aku cuba beri peluang. Aku cuba buka ruang untuk terima dengan seadanya sebab aku tau aku bukannya perfect sangat. Tapi ternyata, apa yg aku buat tu tak betul rupanya. Nampaknya si dia langsung tidak menghargai penerimaan kita ni.<br />
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Jadi, lepas ni, memang memilih lah jawabnya aku ni. Tapi memilih biarlah bertempat. Bukannya susah sangat kriteria yg aku cari. Cukup solat 5 waktu? Boleh setia? Senang kan? Senang sangat tapi susah nak cari. Haish.<br />
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Wallahu'alam.Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-25260646823764231852014-08-19T13:34:00.001+08:002014-08-19T13:34:27.677+08:00Ups and Downs of Life<div style="text-align: center;">
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Sometimes we are happy, sometimes we are sad. Sometimes we get depressed over things that we think should never happen in the first place.</div>
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No matter how heavy our footstep is.</div>
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No matter how painful our heart is.</div>
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No matter how much we have cried.</div>
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Still, we have to move on.</div>
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People say there will be a rainbow after a rain.</div>
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In order for us to be strong, we have to undergo some series of tests.</div>
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If you are having a hard time, just remember that there must be a reason behind it.</div>
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The important thing is, stay calm and move on.</div>
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Beat that struggle of life.</div>
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Believe in yourself.</div>
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Have faith in God.</div>
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Nothing is going to stop you achieve your dreams but yourself.</div>
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If you need motivation, try listen to this: Stand Up for the Champions by Right Said Fred</div>
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"When I fall down, I have to pick myself back up"</div>
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Get up, go ahead, run towards your dream!</div>
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Dah jadi perkara biasa rasanya bila blogger tak sempat nak update blog kan hahaha</div>
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Ala, bukannya orang kesah pun. Kita bukannya retis hahaha</div>
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Sememangnya saya tersangatlah sibuk. Sejak menjadi perunding kewangan di Great Eastern Takaful, jadual saya memang sentiasa penuh. Walaupun sibuk dengan pelbagai aktiviti, saya happy kerana tagline yang dipakai Great Eastern, Life is Great!, benar-benar memberikan semangat kepada saya.</div>
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Dalam bidang ini saya juga bertemu dengan bermacam-macam jenis orang, pelbagai jenis ragam.</div>
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Pengalaman pahit manis itu sudah menjadi lumrah tetapi apa yang penting saya seronok membantu orang mendapatkan perlindungan.</div>
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Dalam kesibukan saya, saya tetap meluangkan masa untuk berjumpa rakan-rakan kerana mereka sentiasa memberikan saya semangat untuk mengorak langkah maju ke hadapan.</div>
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Saya bersyukur kerana dikurniakan kawan-kawan yang sporting habis!</div>
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Walaupun sekarang ni bila jumpa je pasti saya bercerita mengenai Takaful, mereka layan kan aje hahahaha</div>
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Sorry friends...rasanya Takaful dah jadi sebahagian dari hidup saya :)</div>
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Semoga anda semua berjaya dalam apa saja yang anda lakukan.</div>
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Doakan saya juga berjaya.</div>
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Jika anda berminat untuk ketahui mengenai Great Eastern Takaful, boleh visit blog saya yang kedua http://aziemahgekozen2.blogspot.com</div>
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atau hubungi saya terus:</div>
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Aziemah 019-3663348</div>
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aziemahsalleh@gmail.com</div>
Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-25412527445150963882013-11-26T13:19:00.002+08:002013-11-26T13:19:24.834+08:00something to ponder<div style="text-align: center;">
You like to think you're never wrong<br /> (You live what you've learned)<br /> You have to act like you're someone<br /> (You live what you've learned)<br /> You want someone to hurt like you<br /> (You live what you've learned)<br /> You want to share what you have been through<br /> (You live what you've learned)</div>
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Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-39432589021808098262013-11-05T13:34:00.002+08:002013-11-05T13:34:43.377+08:00More than one job is normal these days...<div align="center">
Well, never in my life had I ever imagined that I'll have more than one job. Yes, since young, I only think I'll have one job and that's it. I've never been so wrong.</div>
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It began when I was pursuing my study for Masters.</div>
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Well, if you've been following my posts, you'll know that I worked hard to pay for my study fee and my daily needs. At that time, I considered I already had three jobs.</div>
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First, as a full-time student. Second, as an assistant to a lecturer. Third, a part-time translator for subtitles. Well, sometimes I received theses from various disciplines to edit or translate.</div>
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Whoaaa...wait, no...don't think by having three jobs, that would mean I had a lot of money. No, not at all. All pay that I received was used to pay here and there and I ended up with nothing. </div>
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Stressed with that kind of life, I decided to quit my study and hunt for a job.</div>
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Thank God, finally I'm now a full-time editor.</div>
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But, ops I did it again! hahahaha</div>
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You know, our living cost nowadays is really high.</div>
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In no time, I secured a job as a part-time translator on daily basis. Meaning that, after getting home from a full day at the office, straightaway I start with my translation work.</div>
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And again...you know. It's not that I'm not satisfied with my pay and life, but I think I have to search for something better. I think I must upgrade my life, because it's just my nature, I'd like my life to be better.</div>
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Without knowing it, now I am a part-time takaful agent hehehehehe. </div>
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And now that means again I have three jobs.</div>
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and whoa...again, my money is not as much as you think huhuhu</div>
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No, no...I'm not complaining here. I just want to encourage everyone out there, who's reading this, I would like to remind you, life is not as easy as we think. Sometimes we really have to work hard to survive in this world.</div>
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And again a big BUT, we don't have to work hard all the time. At one point of time, you'll just have to work smart. But before reaching that point, we all have to work hard. Yes, you've to taste the difficulty first and live easily after.</div>
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Never live easily first and suffer after. Remember that...</div>
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You might think something is wrong with my life. You might think that I'm not donating enough. That's why money is never sufficient for me. But no, I would like to deny that because I believe, God has better plans for me. That's why he puts me in these shoes.</div>
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And I'm happy with my life right now. Because I always have something to do and I really like that ^__^</div>
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Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-87700614861408905762013-11-03T00:36:00.000+08:002013-11-03T00:36:37.948+08:00It's Not Easyit's not easy<br />
to be seating here<br />
with a smile cheesy<br />
writing all the time, so sissy<br />
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it's not easy<br />
peeking at your phone<br />
like something smells fishy<br />
going to the ladies<br />
countless times when you're sleepy<br />
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it's not easy<br />
to be reading with eyes opened so wide<br />
to brainstorm ideas until you feel nausea<br />
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it's not easy<br />
really<br />
but i'm truly happy<br />
for everything's just crazy<br />
mind blown delved into fantasy<br />
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it's not easy<br />
as long as you're not lazy<br />
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-AziemahGekozen, 2013-Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-53018346031119268652013-10-05T02:07:00.000+08:002013-10-05T02:07:30.757+08:00Memperkenalkan Great Eastern Takaful Insurance<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Berapa kali </span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">anda berazam mahu</span> <span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: red;"><b>menabung</b></span>?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Berapa kali </span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">anda membuat <span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: red;">kira-kira</span></b> <span style="font-size: large;">atau <span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: red;"><b>belanjawan </b></span><span style="font-size: large;">tetapi <span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: red;">berakhir </span></b><span style="font-size: large;">dengan <b><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">kekecewaan</span></span></b></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: x-large;">?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Saya
yakin, ramai di antara kita, tidak kira muda atau tua, miskin atau
kaya, sentiasa mempunyai masalah kewangan. Tidak kira berapa banyak pun
gaji kita, berapa banyak pun elaun atau biasiswa yang kita dapat, masih
tidak cukup untuk digunakan terutamanya semasa kecemasan melanda...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Kecemasan apa yang saya maksudkan?</span></div>
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<li><b><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: large;">Kemalangan</span></span></b></li>
<li><b><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: large;">Penyakit kritikal seperti serangan jantung, kanser, diabetes, Alzheimer dan banyak lagi</span></span></b></li>
<li><b><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: large;">Kematian</span></span></b></li>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Bayangkan,
jika ditakdirkan kita meninggal...apa kita nak tinggal untuk isteri,
anak-anak kita? Ibu bapa yang semakin tua dan tidak boleh menanggung
diri sendiri lagi? Apa yang kita akan tinggalkan untuk mereka? Siapa
yang akan sara mereka?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Bayangkan...kita
hidup sehari-hari, menggunakan segala duit yang ada. Tanpa ada simpanan
tetap yang boleh menjamin masa hadapan. Jika ada pun yang berdisiplin
dalam menabung, apabila kecemasan terjadi, duit yang disimpan itu akan
digunakan dan akhirnya habis begitu sahaja.</span></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">JADI...</span></span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"> <span style="font-size: large;">Saya ingin menyeru semua rakyat Malaysia, marilah kita mula menabung. Dengan hanya <b><span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #cc0000;">RM 7</span></span> </b>sehari, anda sudah pun bersedia dengan payung sebelum hujan turun.</span></span></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Eh, nanti dulu!</span></span></span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Jangan
hanya menyimpan di bank. Sudah saya katakan tadi bukan...jika anda
menyimpan di bank, duit simpanan anda akan terguna juga apabila berlaku
kecemasan bukan?</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Jadi, marilah kita sama-sama menabung dengan </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Kenapa </span>perlu <span style="font-size: x-large;">menabung </span>dengan <b>Great Eastern Takaful Insurance</b>?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Jika
terjadi kemalangan atau anda ditimpa penyakit yang tidak terjangka,
anda akan mendapat manfaat-manfaat seperti kos rawatan dan perubatan
yang akan ditanggung dan pampasan jika berlaku kematian.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><i><span style="font-size: small;">Ini
adalah Skim Medical Card Takaful Insurance di mana kos perubatan anda
ditanggung, pampasan diberi jika terjadi kemalangan, dan juga kematian.
Ia adalah skim Islamik di mana pelaburan tidak melibatkan arak dan judi.
Anda juga boleh memberi nama waris di mana waris yang dinamakan akan
mendapat pampasan jika berlaku kematian pemegang polisi.</span></i></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">Kenapa saya katakan menabung?</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Kerana anda akan <span style="font-size: x-large;">mendapat kembali wang anda</span> selepas suatu tempoh. Dan jika pun anda ada membuat tuntutan, <span style="font-size: x-large;">duit simpanan anda tidak akan disentuh.</span> <b>Hebat dan menarik!!!</b></span></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">Kenapa nak tunggu lagi?</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Kita tidak tahu bila kita akan sakit, lebih-lebih lagi penyakit kritikal seperti darah tinggi dan kencing manis. </span></div>
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<span style="color: red;"><b><span style="font-size: large;">Cepat sebelum terlambat!</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Anda tidak akan mendapat manfaat perubatan jika anda sudah pun terkena penyakit. Lebih baik bersedia sebelum terkena.</span></div>
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<i><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Better be safe than sorry!</span></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Tak
rugi pun...apa yang nak ruginya? Bukannya duit itu hilang begitu
sahaja. Anda akan terima kembali duit tersebut kerana anda sebenarnya
menabung dengan kami. Memang hebat!!!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Jadi apa tunggu lagi?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Hanya <span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><b>RM 7 </b></span></span>sehari, anda tidak akan risau lagi!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>Great Eastern sudah berusia 105 tahun dan tersenarai dalam </i></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>The Malaysia </i></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>Book of Records sebagai jenama yang paling kukuh dan boleh dipercayai.</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Hubungi saya sekarang untuk ketahui maklumat lanjut.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Untuk penerangan lebih jelas, anda boleh berjumpa dengan saya (untuk kawasan Bangi, Kajang, KL, Shah Alam sahaja).</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Sayalah ejen yang anda cari dan boleh dipercayai.</span></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: small;">Untuk
respons yang pantas, anda digalakkan untuk menghantar emel atau mesej.
Boleh juga melalui Whatsapp. Saya bersedia membantu anda. Sesi
rundingan/perbincangan adalah percuma.</span></span></i></div>
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<br />Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-128781195413547242013-09-04T13:34:00.000+08:002013-09-04T23:03:32.254+08:00I Watched Elysium and...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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One day, I went to the cinema with two friends. We were in the same class during bachelor degree. After several years, only then we got the chance and time to reunite. Well, after having lunch while exchanging each other's stories, we decided to watch this movie, Elysium. </div>
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Well, actually I wanted to watch The Conjuring but there was no showing for that and other movies were not attractive enough.</div>
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While buying the tickets, the girl at the counter asked me and the other friend if we were 18 years old.</div>
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Hahahahaha we laughed our heart loud...</div>
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Do we look young, meh? miahahaha</div>
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So, then, I looked at the ticket. Why do the viewers have to be 18 years and above? I kept wondering because the synopsis was about the future, right?</div>
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Well, the movie started. It was full of actions. But I felt that the storyline wasn't strong enough and though the movie was interesting because it was certainly action-packed but..not really the best. Ah, what I'm bubbling about?</div>
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Well, throughout the movie, I kept wondering, about the 18 years old. This movie looks normal to me, I thought to myself.</div>
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<br />Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-38291522110862794772013-09-01T04:29:00.000+08:002013-09-01T04:31:16.837+08:00Random WordsYou were the first person I liked<br />
Seeing you smiling bright<br />
I could see the tip of light<br />
Which I hoped it was alright<br />
To forget every fright<br />
And carry on with a heart feeling light<br />
<br />
Somehow the person that once I liked<br />
Snatched away the light<br />
<br />
Left me thinking every night<br />
What did I do so wrong I cried<br />
To be in such a fight<br />
That I didn't even know which side was right<br />
<br />
Then I knew I was right<br />
And I knew you were on which side<br />
Alright<br />
God knew I have a pride<br />
That was why He put me in such a fight<br />
So that I knew which light was right<br />
And to carry on with the path on the other side<br />
Which I left without fright<br />
It happened to be so wide<br />
Thank God for showing me the light<br />
<br />
-Aziemah Gekozen, 2013-<br />
<br />Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-12203151830989825532013-08-11T16:22:00.000+08:002013-08-11T16:28:44.718+08:00Let's backstab, shall we?<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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It’s disappointing, really, when we meet people who have not
a noble heart but a very dark one. It’s more annoying when you can’t run away
from them and have to stick with them just because you have to, because of the
situation…just because you can’t run away.</div>
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In life, I’ve met so many different people with many kinds
of attitude, perception, and prejudice. I thought those were the worst. Well, I
guess I was wrong. The worst kinds of people you may see on this planet are the
people who have the darkest heart, the most hypocrite face, and the sharpest
backstabber!</div>
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Always, I can’t relay what I have in mind in writing but I
always hope that my readers can understand what I’m trying to say. I just want
to advise you all, please, don’t be too nice to people just like I did! </div>
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Honestly, I had no suspicion over that person. I always
thought that the person is nice, that no harms will ever be done to me. I
always gave the best, I’d been very helpful, and I’d been very kind as I was
doing all that because I was thinking that person was one of my friends. Well,
I guess, I was very naïve or should I say stupid? For doing all the nicest
things that I could have ever done and after all, what I got was a very sharp,
hurtful, painful backstabbing effects?</div>
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Pardon me for not having beautifully arranged sentences here
but this just portrays the clutters in my mind right now. Every day I’ve been
waking up and sleeping to this matter. Now my life is no more as peaceful as
before I met that person. I feel very sad. Why? Why do these people have to
exist in this world? If they have to exist, why do I have to meet them? Why don’t
they meet among themselves and backstab each other? Won’t it be fun and they’ll
learn from each other?</div>
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Well, when I feel like this, all I can say over and over
again is I feel so sad, disappointed, annoyed, and mad. I need to get rid of this
person but as I said earlier, I’m stuck. I can’t do anything right now. All I
can do is just see that hypocrite face and feel that burning desire to push me
down. Yes, that person doesn’t like seeing me happy. So that person just wants
to see me down and sad. That person can’t do anything except to backstab me.
How sneaky but alas, I knew! How did I know? Simple. You can’t cover a dead
body because that smell will eventually lead people towards it.</div>
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All I hope for in a friend is honesty. It’s just hard to get
this. No wonder people always say honesty is the best policy. Now I see, if you’re
not befriending people because you really want to befriend them, then don’t
expect that you have best friends! I don’t know why you’re like this but I
really hope you will realise what you’re doing.</div>
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Deep in my heart, I think you shall never rest in peace
after what you did to me. Let’s pray that God shows everything and clear my
name back. My dignity has always been abused by these kinds of people who have
the darkest heart, the most evil intention, and the most hypocrite face that
you’ll never imagined them killing a single ant! Backstabber, just you wait,
just you wait…for something will befall you, I’m sure…because the slightest
evil deed will always have a repay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Thanks for backstabbing me. I hope you’ll always have nightmares…</div>
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Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-59495665214781391972013-07-14T22:39:00.001+08:002013-07-14T22:42:59.351+08:00i'm just disappointed<div style="text-align: center;">
it would be a lie if i said i'm okay with everything that just happened</div>
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a strong denial is just an affirmation</div>
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truthfully, everything swirls in my mind</div>
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i'm sad, mad, unhappy, upset</div>
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most of all</div>
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i'm so disappointed</div>
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there's no need for me to describe what just happened</div>
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just enough to say</div>
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everyone in the world</div>
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will go through a time,<br />
that they become disappointed with what they had been putting hopes for</div>
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at least, in my case</div>
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it wasn't me who put that hope</div>
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but that person who raised the hope and just left when i've raised it high</div>
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<i>what goes up must come down</i></div>
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that's what Alicia Keys sings</div>
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yeah, true enough Alicia</div>
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nothing remains high up there</div>
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eventually they will come down</div>
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just like my spirit right now</div>
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it's enough to say that I feel like such an idiot</div>
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such idiot that i've never imagined</div>
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such a thing that i've been criticising</div>
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is now happening to me</div>
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never, trust anyone,</div>
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that's my advice</div>
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nothing serious happened</div>
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but being me</div>
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such a little thing means a chaos in my life</div>
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being such a perfectionist, though not really perfectionist</div>
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i hate when something messes up my life</div>
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i just hope that life will get better</div>
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i will look for the rainbow after this storm</div>
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though i don't know when the rainbow will appear</div>
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i'll try hard to get on my feet</div>
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and search for that rainbow</div>
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<i>i was waiting on a different story </i></div>
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<i>this time i'm mistaken, </i></div>
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<i>for handing you a heart worth breaking,</i></div>
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<i>and i've been wrong </i></div>
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Nickelback sings and that just suits my situation right now</div>
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i just hope right now</div>
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someone would ask me, <i>kenchana?</i></div>
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korean for are you okay?</div>
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not just anyone, but that someone</div>
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but you know, it will never happen</div>
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because i'm waiting on a different story</div>
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let's hope that this will be my step stone towards a better life</div>
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though i'm still weak to face whatever to come</div>
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sometimes tear fills up my eyes</div>
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and i cry hard</div>
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not because i'm frustrated but i feel so stupid</div>
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yes, stupid...so, very stupid</div>
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i have to get a grip of myself</div>
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if you're in the same boat as I am</div>
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let's tell ourselves</div>
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if it's not me to help myself to get up, then who would?</div>
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everyone has their life</div>
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so we should stand up for our own life too</div>
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Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-81955840485992619202013-07-09T21:18:00.000+08:002013-07-09T21:23:33.868+08:00is it over?<div style="text-align: center;">
such a little thing</div>
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is so powerful</div>
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to ruin everything</div>
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such a little thing</div>
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has been tearing up my heart</div>
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and has set us apart</div>
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are you giving up</div>
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because of such a little thing?</div>
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are you mad over</div>
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such a little thing?</div>
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you leave me with no clue</div>
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you just go away like that</div>
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like it is my fault</div>
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like I am to be blamed</div>
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for such a little thing</div>
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while I don't even know</div>
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what happened</div>
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or what's happening</div>
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it seems like</div>
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I'm on the dark side</div>
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fine</div>
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you can put the blame on me</div>
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but I know</div>
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I'm not wrong</div>
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because I know nothing</div>
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it hurts</div>
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really</div>
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deep inside</div>
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such a pain to bear</div>
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such a torture to face</div>
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never in my life</div>
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had I imagined</div>
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that I'll be blamed</div>
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over such a little thing</div>
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that I'll be trapped</div>
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like an idiot</div>
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who has no clue</div>
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of what's going on</div>
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I've been living my life to the fullest</div>
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until I met you</div>
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I put aside everything</div>
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I put aside all negative thoughts</div>
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even</div>
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I rejected someone's proposal</div>
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just because of you</div>
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alas!</div>
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everything seems useless now</div>
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though it still hurts</div>
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really deep inside my heart</div>
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I'll take that blame</div>
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and bring it far</div>
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I will never forget this day</div>
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no</div>
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because for such a little thing</div>
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it's enough to show everything</div>
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I know everything is still blurry</div>
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because I still know nothing</div>
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but I'll brace myself</div>
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and face it</div>
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it really hurts</div>
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such a torture</div>
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such a pain</div>
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that can leave me in a drain</div>
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-Aziemah Gekozen, 2013-</div>
Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-49363854552734145472013-06-27T22:12:00.001+08:002013-06-27T22:12:27.754+08:00You're different...<div style="text-align: center;">
Indeed</div>
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You're not the same like the others</div>
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You're different</div>
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In the words that I can't describe</div>
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You're special</div>
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In the ways that I can't picturise</div>
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Yes</div>
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That's you</div>
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You don't need a key</div>
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To the door</div>
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That's why</div>
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You're special in your own way</div>
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You use no words</div>
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You use no actions</div>
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Yet you're so special</div>
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Alas</div>
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I'm still worried</div>
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Are you in the same boat as I am?</div>
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....</div>
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You're just different</div>
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....</div>
Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-62007088507273789922013-06-24T20:57:00.000+08:002013-06-24T20:57:09.595+08:00Apa Status Warganegara Kita Sekarang?<div style="text-align: center;">
Yup, kebanjiran warga asing sekarang sangat la menjadi-jadi. Pegi mana2 memang tak sah kalau tak jumpa diorang ni. Jumpa takpe lagi, tapi yang dah makin berlagak ni apa kes? Baru jadi pak guard dah rasa taraf ketua polis negara? Memang nak kena penyepak betul!</div>
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Nak dijadikan cerita, satu hari aku pergi hantar kawan di sebuah apartment kat Cheras. Tau2 je lah kat situ, apartment memang susah nak masuk kalau orang luar yang nak masuk. Tapi yang itu takpelah, sebab kalau dia senang2 bagi masuk, security dah tak betul la kan?</div>
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So, setelah bersoal jawab dengan pak guard kat depan (of kosla bukan warganegara kita), aku pun dibenarkan masuk. Yer la, takkan muka aku ni muka nak pecah masuk rumah orang? hahahaha...</div>
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So, aku dengan bahagianya masuk. Happy jer sebab dibenarkan masuk. Lepas tu nak parking sebab nak singgah rumah kawan jap. Nak pegi toilet punya pasal la ni...haish...tapi parking tu memang tempat orang keluar masuk. Kira macam takde tuan la...</div>
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Alih2, bila aku turun, dah ada pak guard lain (yup, warga asing la) duk berdiri kat tepi keta. Ingatkan dia nak beli roti sebab kat situ tiba2 boleh pulak ada penjual roti atas motor. Boleh pulak dia masuk kan? Ke memang macam tu?</div>
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Well, back to our story. Sebab aku kan dah nak balik, so borak2 la kejap dengan kawan tu. Kata2 perpisahan katakan. Tengah baru nak happy2, tetiba pak guard yang ntah hape bahasa dia cakap pun tatau, duk menyampuk kitorang duk cakap. Orang duk bercakap, dia sibuk2 nak cakap, dahla tak faham satu habuk dia cakap.</div>
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Lagi best dia cakap sambil tunjuk2 kat keta. Kitorang dah pelik. Dahla tadi reverse parking, baik punya kena divider, dah calar kat belakang, ingatkan ada calar lain lagi. So aku tengok2 la, takde apa pun tempat dia tunjuk?</div>
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So kitorang sambung borak2, wat tatau kat dia. Pastu dia cakap lagi (aih, memang nak makan penampar betul!) Tak reti langsung nak hormat orang tengah bercakap. Pastu aku dapat tangkap perkataan clamp dan rm50. Hah???!!</div>
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Pastu penjual roti (yang penyibuk tu), tiba2 tolong translate. Dia cakap, "Ni kalau clamp mau kena rm50."</div>
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Laa...apa kes kau nak clamp? Apa kes?</div>
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Kawan aku yang naik geram, tanya: Laa, kenapa pulak nak clamp?</div>
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Pastu pak guard tu cakap (dengan susahnya kitorg nak faham): Tadi saya ada kat situ, takde sapa2 bagitau nak masuk sini.</div>
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Eh? Ada kat mana?</div>
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Dia tunjuk kat situ. Tempat yang memang kitorang lalu masa sampai tadi.</div>
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Laa, tadi mana ade orang kat situ. Dia cakap, adaaaa.. Mana ada. Tadi mana ada orang. Lagipun kitorang kan dah lepas masuk kat depan tadi. Maknanya pak guard sorang lagi dah tau la kitorang masuk, Dah siap ambik no. plate lagi.</div>
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Pastu dia duk cakap lagi yang kitorang tak bagitau dia.</div>
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<br />Eh, bodoh bin bangang betul la dia ni. Tapi aku memang cool je, yang menjawabnye kawan aku. Kalau ikutkan hati aku, memang nak kena bangla ni. Tak tau ke aku tengah tension keta baru calar langgar divider? Rasa nak pelempang je kat situ...mentang2 la kitorang ni pompuan kan, memang saje cari pasal.</div>
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Pastu, dah mood kitorang dah hilang. Aku pun get ready untuk bertolak. Tapi aku macam buat main2, buat lambat2 nak balik...biar dia sakit ati.</div>
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Mula2 aku pegi halau kucing, halau tak bsungguh pulak tu hahahaha...dua2 ekor pak guard ngan penjual roti tu masih kat situ, x bganjak langsung, nak suro aku balik, tapi x bagi laluan. </div>
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Pastu aku masuk kereta, bukak tingkap, start enjin, pasang lagu, minum air, cakap2 sikit dengan kawan. Dua ekor tu duk tunjuk muka, bila la minah ni nak blah.</div>
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Heh, seriuslah...muka nak menghalau macam ni bukan negara aku! Sangat sakit hati okeh! Menggelegak darah jangan cakap laa...Macam ni negara diorang! Macam diorang tu pulak imigresen yang menghalau pelarian!</div>
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Sangat sakit hati! Dah lama aku duk fikir pasal isu kebanjiran warga asing neh! Tu baru kena macam tu...Yang kes2 jenayah berat tu? Macam mana?</div>
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Haih...berat nanang sungguh doh negare kite le ni...</div>
Aziemah Gekozen Great Eastern Takafulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04097199695132314511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1522654772220252431.post-17241552774651420522013-05-26T20:47:00.002+08:002013-05-26T20:47:41.800+08:00I Attended A Wedding Today...<div style="text-align: center;">
I attended a wedding today, after a very long time since the last wedding I went (which I can't even remember when)...</div>
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Well, we sat down near the speaker.</div>
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The song was so loud yet I felt so lonely, so sad...</div>
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This was first time I ever felt sad attending a wedding.</div>
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Yeah, surely you can guess why, right?</div>
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While eating, I was asking myself, when will my turn come?</div>
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I kept thinking to myself, and suddenly I asked myself, why I had been asking myself this ridiculous question?</div>
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Ah, crazy!</div>
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But I just felt that way...</div>
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