Been in a good mood lately when suddenly...

arghh...stress!

i've been in such a good mood lately. i've been so happy with my life.

well, let's not say happy but my life has been smooth and calm.

i've been in hibernating mode for quite a long time. by stating 'hibernating', i mean i haven't gone mad for quite a long time. well, what a record for me!

hahahaha...

i've been well, when suddenly...aahh, something disturbs my peace of life!

just imagine, it's like you're sleeping peacefully and some bugs come and disturb your beautiful sleep. how do you feel? you feel like burning the place down, right?

whatever it is, i hope i've grown up and can hold my anger in a more mature way. well, let's hope i don't run amok anymore...which i hate and love too!

I’m starting a new life :)

Yes, my dear readers! We meet again after a very long time! (The usual starter for bloggers hahaha)

I had so much to write but I didn’t really have time to write because I’M STARTING A NEW LIFE!

Hehehe…finally! I’ve started making a change in my life. Actually, I started to apply for jobs in the last 2 months and I didn’t expect that I would be called for interviews!

Well, I went to ONLY two interviews. But it seemed to me was the necessary thing to do because I’m the type who choose my job. I don’t care if people say I’m too choosy because I KNOW what I WANT and what I DO. I’m pretty confident that I’m not the same as what people reported in the newspaper where graduates remain unemployed because they are too choosy.

Speaking about being CHOOSY, you have to be smart, you know. We don’t choose and let go blindly. I hope you, my dear readers, understand what I’m talking about because I’ve known several people who did not choose carefully ended up devastated. Well, let’s hope that they will find the correct path.

By the way, back to my story. I’m so fond of the position as an editor. So, I only searched for that position particularly and not many were advertised. So, I applied for several but only called for two interviews. The others contacted me but they couldn’t seem to understand why I’d been working only part-time and maybe because of my decision to quit my study gave them an impression that I’m a QUITTER. Well, let them think what they want because I know exactly what I’m doing. Let’s be positive, right?

The first company that I went for the interview was one of the companies that I had worked for part-time. I applied for the same position in 2010 but then they asked if I wanted to work in Johor. Being a 21 year-old graduate, I was too scared to work there because Johor was, and still is, one of the states in Peninsula that I haven’t been to. So, I refused it but I accepted several translation jobs after that. So, when I went for the interview last month, the person interviewing me remembered me particularly hehehehe. This time, I don’t mind anymore if they want to send me to Johor. So, during the interview, there was a written test and interview sessions.

The second company that I went for interview was also one of the companies I did part-time jobs. That company particularly translated the subtitles of Korean dramas/movies/variety shows. Interesting right? As a K-Pop lover, of course this company is a dream for me because while working, I can watch the shows I’m working on. Plus, I had been working part-time for that company for a year. So, once again, the interviewer who is a Korean woman recognised me and my work. It was a good sign, I think, if the interviewer knew you and she also praised me for my work before. I really wanted to work there because it is located in KL. The transportation is easy for someone who doesn’t have a car like me and the salary is quite good.

BUT, I slipped my tongue huhu. I told them that I went for another interview. I slipped it, oh uh. It couldn’t be helped but they started to make me comparing between the first company and their company. Of course, I said their company is better than the other one and I would be very happy to work for them. Well, maybe it was fated that I didn’t get the job when I contacted them a week after that. One of the reasons maybe because I slipped my tongue. And the other one, maybe because I don’t have any transport. That company works on a deadline basis. So, if I had to go home late, it would be hard for me. So, I took the positive side. God knows what is better for me.

So, I got the job at the first company. Luckily, I’m not sent to Johor but here I am, still in Selangor. Still not far to go back to my hometown hehe. And now I’m staying near to my younger sister. Though the salary they offer to me is much, much lower than the second company, I think maybe this is the best place for me to gather as much as experience I can in editing field. Plus, here I’m editing for English books. At the other company, I’ll be editing Malay subtitles which is not very good for my vocabulary development.

So, I believe that maybe God has better plans for me. Sometimes, what we want is not necessarily what is best for us, right?

Oh, I’m staying at the company’s hostel. Well, very good because I don’t really have much money right now. And I haven’t let go my rental house in Shah Alam because I’ve so many stuffs and I don’t know where to put them huhuhu.

Every morning, I will walk with another two Chinese girls to our office. The walk took us almost 30 minutes huwaaa. At first, I wasn’t happy because I was tired. But then, after the first day at work, I think the walk is very necessary because I only sit at the office for the whole day, with the air-cond and without the sunlight. If I don’t walk, maybe I will develop more fat in my body and I might have a heart-attack if I don’t exercise, right? So, I began to like walking to our office but then, it is quite dangerous because we have to walk past several factories where of course, there are many immigrants working there too. I hope, everything is okay. I hope they are nice guys and won’t disturb us, Amin.

It’s only been three days at work, but I’ve started to like the office and my office-mates. Though, they said I’m such a quiet person, I will try to mingle with them more. Yes, I’m a very shy person hehehe but once you know me, you will know how noisy and nosy I am opss :)

I will wait patiently for another three or six months to buy a car. I really want to drive because it will be safer and easier for me to go eat huhu. Now, I’m under probation period for 6 months. You know, this is a trial period where they want to see how I perform. If I didn’t perform well, I might have to go for another 6-month probation period. Then, I might be permanent or terminated. All depends on my performance. Well, I think this is what happens in a private-owned company. Everything is about performance.

I hope I will perform well because I plan to stay here for several years before I continue my study again. Being an editor is not just about editing. I will have to liaise with writers, designers, illustrators and my superior. And also, I will have to suggest the concept of the book I’m working on. Wow! To tell you the truth, I didn’t expect all those things. I only thought I only have to sit and edit the language (though I think I’m not very excellent in English language yet) huhu.

For the time being, I’m editing a MUET book. It feels like I’m studying for a MUET paper hehehe because every day, I read and read and edit. My attention is easily disturbed by the surroundings but I’ll try to adapt. Plus, I have a deadline to catch! huwaaa…oh, my superior seems quite a strict woman. It seems that I’m seeing a duplicate of my lecturer hehehe. But it’s okay, I know that I can’t work under loose supervision.

Yeah, please pray for my success! For now I’m starting a new life! Oh, I think so far I’m the youngest in my department…

Ah, it was quite hard for my mom to let me go because I had been helping her at home for several months hehehe but I said I need to work to earn some money, right?

p/s: I haven’t informed my lecturers and MARA about this huhu I’m pretty sure that they will be disappointed when they knew this ~.~”

The Change...

Hi!

Do you remember I've been talking about making changes in my previous posts? If you haven't read it, here are the links:

Change for the better
It's not easy

Well, if you have been following my blog closely, you will be able to guess what change that I want to make.

Hurmn, I think it is time to reveal about it. Though it is not official yet, I'm announcing that I want to quit my study! Yeah, I'm quitting! That's the change I'm talking about!

After a thorough process of thinking and deliberating with people around me, I've decided to quit. I want to change for the better.

You know, it's not easy for me to make this decision.

Why? Because I've spent almost 2 years of my life for this research. I've been working hard to get a fund for my study. I've been doing several part time jobs just to support my life and study.

BUT...I just can't go on anymore. No, I'm not blaming anyone else. All I should blame is myself because I can't be disciplined enough to carry on with my research.

YES. I have passed my second defence of research proposal. Everyone is saying to me, "Why not just carry on? You have passed it. You just have to do it a little more. Your 2 years will be wasted."

Yeah, A LITTLE MORE they said. Truth is, the proposal is only 30% of the entire research process AND I just took 70% of the actual time to finish it.

When there is a will, there is a way. But now, I don't have the will anymore. It is POSSIBLE for me to do the rest 70% within that 30% of time. But, we can only PLAN, dear. We can only plan...

Let me tell you something. At the early stage, I planned to finish within 1 year and a half. If possible, I even wanted to finish within 1 year but the system won't allow it. So, I made the plan. I drew a Gantt chart and showed to my supervisor. But, things just happen you know.

We were told that we were only allowed to do our presentations during the second semester. And what happened? I did my presentation ONE YEAR from the registration date and I failed. Just imagine, how disappointed I was. I was so depressed that my intention to quit started to emerge but I carried on. I consoled myself and started writing again.

However, I only did my second presentation FIVE MONTHS later. It wasn't anyone's fault. Not me nor the system. My friends and I were supposed to defend only three months after the first but nothing happened.

Well, after my second presentation, I went home because my grandpa was severely ill. I was at home for two months taking care of my family. I wrote about it.

Cerita Sebelum Raya

During that time, I keep contacting my friends asking if the result was out. I eagerly wanted to know if I had passed the evaluation but it was nothing. For two months, there was silence. And then I heard the system just started a meeting for it after that two months.

Even so, after the meeting, NO ONE contacted me to give the full result. For my first defence, a staff sent an email to me and gave me an official letter. But this time, there was nothing. Someone accused me for not having self-initiative to look for the staff and ask about it.

Yeah, that person said it because she didn't know that I had been asking my friends, and my friends had been asking the very same staff about the result, and the staff didn't know anything. At the end of the day, the staff didn't contact anyone of us to collect the result when it was out.

Enough! I have had enough of this bureaucracy system! All the systematic process just eats out my time and wastes it. I just can't see a brighter future anymore. I don't see why I should continue on. I just see another wasting of time and another hard-to-handle system.

I really wanted to say every little thing in my head relating to this but I need to keep it because it involves other people.

If only I could vent out everything here...

By the way, my supervisor hasn't known this yet. Somehow, I'm quite scared to inform her about this. huhu

SAYS-Malaysia's Social News Network

Pernah dengar tentang website SAYS.my?

Dulu, aku selalu nampak blogger promote website ni kat blog diorang. Diorang duk beria ajak orang join Says.my tapi aku tak tau langsung benda ni apa. 

Mula-mula, aku malas nak ambik tau sebab aku rasa dia macam Nuffnang, kita letak iklan, pastu dapat duit untuk setiap klik yang orang tekan. Dulu aku ada, tapi aku rasa macam takkan ada untung pun sebab bukan senang nak mintak orang tekan iklan, kan?

Akhirnya, satu hari tu, aku tergerak hati untuk tengok website ni lepas ada orang promote kat satu group di Facebook.

Oooo...ya, memang betul! Dia macam nuffnang jugak. Dapat duit untuk setiap klik yang orang tekan. Tapi dia ni LAIN sikit. Lain macam mana?

Kita tak perlu letak iklan kat blog. Memang baguslah untuk blogger yang tak ramai follower macam aku ni. 

Kita boleh PILIH iklan yang kita nak letak. Yang kita rasa akan ada orang berminat nak tengok.

Kemudian, kita boleh SHARE di Facebook, Twitter, Google Plus, dan LinkedIn!

Lagi senang dan mudah kan? Kita dapat direct audience! Nak tunggu orang buka blog, lambat jugak kan?

Lagi satu, bila kita daftar SAYS.my ni, kita terus dapat kredit RM5! Memang best aaa! Kita boleh cash out duit bila dah cukup RM50.

Memang senang. Mudah nak dapat duit. Sambil2 buka FB atau Twitter, sambil2 tu boleh beriklan dan dapat DUIT!

Jom daftar sekarang! Tak rugi pun, dapat duit lagi ada lah!

Tekan logo di bawah untuk mendaftar dan kalau nak tahu lebih lanjut, boleh baca kat website tu.

Movie Review: The Expendables 2

Honestly, I don't really like action movies. I don't prefer it at all.

But I've got friends, girl friends, who are really into action movies. So, sometimes when we hop into a cinema, I've to respect their preferences too.

So, one day, two friends and I went to a cinema. I wanted to watch a horror story. There were two choices, and one was from Thailand! Of course, Thailand's horror stories are usually very interesting (at least for me). But, after some time of deliberation, the two decided on The Expendables 2.

2? When was the first? But I just agreed.

WoW!

This movie, from the first minute...its action had already started!

Everything was so noisy as they were in a war/fight, I didn't know...but it was full of actions! Okay, it captured my attention.

But, I just didn't like someone's conversation on "the hadjis", about how could they've killed innocent people. These "innocent people" was meant the "US army". What the hell?

Oh, come on! Who attacked whom first? And now they are talking like that? Bull****!

I began to feel regret paying for such a movie. I, as always, don't like movies which have racism or religion issues.

As I was burning in my heart alone, luckily that kind of conversation didn't drag along.

After that, it was full of actions, and actions, and actions until I didn't realise it came to the end.

In conclusion, this movie is GREAT for those who really love ACTION movies!

Ratings: 7/10

p/s: the first one was in 2010

Movie Review?? Dah lama x tulis...

huhu baru perasan, rupanya dah lama aku tak tulis review untuk movies kan?

Maklumlah, terlampau banyak sangat tengok movies sampai x sempat nak wat review. Kalo wat, confirm banyak jer posts hahaha

Nak wat review movie apa yer?? hurmn...

Lagipun sekarang aku tengah fokus nak habiskan Running Man. Sekarang dah episod 100 lebih tapi aku baru tengok episod 60 lebih hahaha

Maklumlah, masa orang duk sibuk tengok Running Man, aku tengah sibuk dengan proposal.

Tengoklah, nanti aku update review pasal movie mana2 yang aku rasa nak wat.

^__^

It's Not Easy

It really is!

It was not as easy as I had expected. It is not that easy to go through the change that I was talking about.

In fact, I'm still in the process to do the changes!

huhuhu I received objections from various parties once I spoke my heart out loud. Everyone did not agree with my sudden move. Well, actually it wasn't so sudden because I had been thinking for several months already! Just that, they were surprised because they had not heard any complaints from me.

Honestly, I cried. I was so depressed over this decision.

It is very hurtful for me too but I really need this. It is not easy for me too but trust me, everything happens for a reason.

I really hope that everything will be smooth for me and I can get away from this soon.

so that I can tell you what's really going on hehehe