what am i doing?

that's the question! it is now 1:16 am.

the earlier plan was to sit down, open my laptop, and

read my previous drafts of proposal and

try to write something useful!

BUT what am i doing?

i've been online for more than 2 hours! doing nothing (literally)!

arghhh...my bones are too lazy to discipline myself...why? why?

suddenly a song by Simple Plan is playing in my head...

~how could this happen to me?~

...

~i'm sick of this life, i just wanna scream~

~how could this happen to me???~

yes, yes, my dear Simple Plan...

i've been asking the same question too...huhu

and yet...In The End by Linkin Park suddenly replaces the former song...

~i tried so hard, and got so far~

~but in the end, it doesn't even matter~